The Best Conversation of My Day

"Um..Sarah, I just wanted a lullaby.." Olivia told me in the sweetest, most innocent (ha) voice that I think I've ever heard...

"But, Olivia, I need to go feed Evie..." I responded

"Just one, please?" By this she means that instead of me having to sing 8 different songs one will do the trick this time.

So, I gave in. I sang silent night (one of her favorites) while tickling her on the back. And I have to admit, I sang it more than once.

Times like these spent with her often have the potential of making my day incredible. She doesn't care that I can't get anywhere near those high notes, she loves lullabies and when she reached back to rub my arm it was apparent that she loves me, too. I can't wait to have my own!

A Clean Home

So I have tried to adopt a somewhat normal cleaning schedule since I have become a part time worker and full time nothing else. As much as I sincerely hate spending my time doing things such as scrubbing a bathtub or ironing I definitely find a sense of satisfaction once all of my tasks are completed.On the other hand, I do get a bit discouraged when I focus more on cleaning my house and worrying about it's appearance than I do the appearance of my witness to people who do not know Christ. I guess these subjects may not really parallel but I have, in my thoughts, connected them somehow. As I vacuumed today and thought about how much more it feels like I work at maintaining my home than I do my relationship with Christ these thoughts hit me like a ton of bricks...

Captivated

I have been trying to remind myself to take the time to be captivated by the small things in my life... like yesterday, I studied a flower and thanked God for the intricacy he used to create it. I can't say that I do this as often as I should, I find such joy when I do realize these things. Allow yourself to be captivated by the mighty works of our Creator. You will definitely be blessed by it as the things of this world direct your attention to Him.

"Captivate us, Lord Jesus
Set our eyes on You
Devastate us with Your presence Falling down
And rushing river, draw us nearer
Holy fountain consume us with You
Captivate us, Lord Jesus, with You" -Watermark

Resting in Christ

Over the past seven months my life has changed dramatically. I have been married for nearly six of those months and thinking about that really blows my mind. I always knew growing up that I wanted to fall in love and get married and be a mommy, but I never expected the journey to pick up so quickly. I say seven months because the month prior to our wedding seemed to be a bigger turning point in my life than anything. I was so busy and overwhelmed that I barely remember anything about it. I must say, though that I am so glad that I had everything done so far in advance that I was able to take care of final touches an entire month before the wedding. That alone made my wedding day almost completely stress free.

Speaking of all of this life change really makes me focus on the consistancy of Christ and I am able to rest in that. I have been so busy lately. I am babysitting twice a week for about 10 hours each day and going to school twice a week for about 3 hours a day. I am also taking two online courses that are the most time-consuming ones I have taken yet. Besides all of this I am striving to learn how to be the wife that my husband needs. I am cleaning the apartment, washing/drying/folding/ironing clothes, meal planning, grocery shopping, cooking, washing a million dishes, and unfortunately paying bills. I say these things not to complain because I definitely love the thought of being a housewife and taking care of my husband and (future) children. I thoroughly enjoy organizing all of these things into my life to make things simpler. I feel that taking this time to try to figure out how to organize my time now will really help me in the future once I have several kids running around and my life is so insanely busy that I will look back to days like today when I talked about how busy I was and just laugh.

All of this being said, I am definitely looking forward to the future that Christ has in store for me, Corey and our family. I can't wait to watch our children enter the world and grow up into little people and show them all the things of the world and explain to them the greatness of God. I feel as though I am called as a Christian to serve my husband and that honestly thrills me. I still am not used to the idea that I am able to be part of an example of Christ and his church through my marriage. It is so beautiful.

Well, Evie just woke up so I better go get to work!